Look Down On Us
We are looking up today and we trust you are looking down
Because today is your birthday and we are insisting on smiles and not a single frown
We know this is what you would ask for because you always thought of other people
So look at your smiley family laughing and having a joke
We always puzzled about what to buy you when this day came each year
You would always ask for the craziest things
So we would do the usual, buying you gifts that would be useful one day
and you would express your delight as you put them quietly away
We like to think you are looking down on us in your caring way
Especially today which is very special because Jessica today is your 31st birthday
So Jessi we hope the angels are singing and you are celebrating in big style
But take a moment from your celestial celebrations to spend with us looking down on us for awhile. Carmen Haines July 3, 2016
Jessica and Danielle
April 15, 1991
Jessica and Danielle were practically best friends from birth! These two went through everything from elementary school and girl scouts to middle school to high school together! Carmen and I cannot be more grateful for the wonderful love and friendship that Danielle showed our sweet daughter! True friends!
Read moreTaken from us before her time was up…
October 7, 2007
Early in the morning of October 7th, 2007, our lives were changed in ways that we cannot explain.. our sweet Jessica left us… Our Jessica left behind loving parents, grandparents, Jonathan, aunts, uncles, cousins, and many friends. Jessica was one of those people who made sure that everyone knew they…
Read more“People ask me all the time if I am okay, I’ll lie to them and say “yeah”. But the truth of the matter is I am barely hanging on, especially on days like today, I just don’t want to burden you with that information. Just as the birth of my daughter on that July 4th 30 years ago changed me forever in a positive way so did her death change me in a negative way. I am not half the person I used to be. It hasn’t made me stronger, I have never felt so weak or helpless or cried so many tears. It hasn’t made me wiser, because I have never felt so unsure of myself. People have told me it will get better as time goes along, but I know it never will because there are some things that time can’t change nor heal what I have lost. After 7 ½ years I still miss everything about my baby girl; her laugh, her screams of excitement and even our arguments. As life goes on and moves on, I feel as if I’m stuck in time, 7 ½ years ago… What would she be doing now? What would she be like? How many kids would she have (other than furry ones)?. The questions seem to go on and on and the hardest part is I will never have an answer. My sweet Jessica today you would be turning 30 and I cannot accept nor believe that you are not here with me to celebrate. I feel so lost and lonely without you and I find myself crying as often as when you first left me because every day I need you more and more. I miss you more than words could ever say and if tomorrow never comes at least I will be holding you once again. Perhaps someday I will be able learn to live with this. But not today!” Carmen Haines – July 4, 2015
Our sweet sweet Jessica… taken from us too early! July 4, 1985 – October 7, 2007.